I think I just need to take a chill pill.

I don't want it to be over yet.


I need a-
Give me a break, give me,

Ack,
Because I constantly feel like I have to be 'relaxing productively',
Jumping between the Singapore River and museums,
Flashy clothing and plugged in earphones,
A desire to connect and a cut-off aura from how good it feels to take things at your own pace,

A want, a need,
To feel like I've let off enough steam during these few days to-
Be able to function again,

Because exams have just ended and yet in a mere two days I have felt as though
I had to be studying again,
And to counter that I have in fact been
Going out to different places, mostly on my own,
Enjoying things like there's no tomorrow.


And now,
You wish to go to Universal Studios
(Alone, which sounds like real fun)
But there's the issue of money and how rushed it all is,
There's the issue of not truly being able to enjoy it because the thought of having splurged will nag at you at the back of your head,

And you think:
Do I want to be spending the last day of my holidays in such a drastic manner?
Do I want a simple movie and an order of pizza,
Or the trip to Gardens by the Bay (that place on the inside you have to pay for) which you've never been,
Or more museums,
Or the Science Centre,
Or this one place that you feel compelled to visit,

Or just stay,
In your little room because that's what you like best,
But it always feels, and felt like,
Wasted time.




There is little time
And it's not like you're dying after this, so what's the hurry


But you don't want it to end,
You don't want this to be over
Not like this,

Not when it feels like you could drown in school and its hostility,
The tear-ups that happen and the frustration at not being able to perform.


Give me a-

Give me a break.