You deserve it

If you don't love yourself
It will show

People will sense it
They will take advantage of you
They will take your smile as is
They won't pry
They won't care

"Nice people always get treated like trash"
True
You can be a little too nice
A little too understanding
A little too willing to listen
But
If you get taken for granted
If you get disrespected
If you can cry in public and garner laughter

I'm sorry to say
You probably don't treat yourself well enough
You probably stay up till 3 to finish projects for irresponsible group members
You probably put all your effort into something, accepting it when all people do is complain
You probably remain silent when they remove you from the scene without telling you beforehand

You probably don't know
That you deserve so much more
You probably don't know
That if you never stop to ask your heart how it feels
If all you do is run and run
If all you ever see is the others,
Never yourself
...
Then it will show
And humans
Being the way they are
Will be quick to sense and access you
As "worthless"
As "stupid"
As "too nice"

And they will be way too quick
To jump on you
Rip you to shreds
See the blood
See your cries
See your trembling

And ignore.


You fall into a dark pit
One with snakes and centipedes
They all whisper the same thing
The one thing you knew all along

That you may have been too nice
That they may have been terrible to you

But you were the one that gave out the signal
The signal that you don't love yourself enough, or even if you do, you put it as second priority.
And so they picked it up and treated you the way you did.

So really, all I wanna say is, please learn to treat yourself well.
You deserve it.
You deserve a lot more.
So, so, so much more.
And I will never stress enough
that expressing anger is extremely important.

So is all other human things that you probably tie and cage up inside of you.