May Flower

This year,
My birthday isn't as 'big' an event.
Meaning, I haven't had the time and energy to anticipate it or be sorely disappointed by people.
It's actually alright now even if people forget by accident
Because the people in my life truly do care,
They're just too busy.
And that one or two who only know how to take? I shan't repeat myself any longer- I must be boring you by now- These slimy figures will be eradicated without further consideration. They're scary, they are. The way their eyes light up when you have something to offer, and the way they treat you like a forgotten trinket when you don't.

Today I'll be off for the Japan Matsuri event as a treat for myself
Tomorrow it's the family and I, out for some sushi and cake
A quiet celebration, with several friends remembering and preparing cards- I even got a bag of goodies with chips and snacks inside it ^~^
A quiet weekend it'll be- for I will read and rest and get myself back together.
Monday will be a date out at Universal Studios,
And I'll simply have to finish a bit of work here and there these days; start revision next week, and mug my way through June.
When my brother gets back from Korea I'll get the socks I so love,
Listen to his stories,
And the family will have pizza together. (In case you didn't know, it's tradition that pizza comes with the sealed deal that is birthday celebrations in the Lee household)

Sounds good doesn't it :D

It truly is enough,
Flashy things aren't important-
I probably will never get a birthday song from the class,
Nor will people from my cca remember
Nor will I get one of those surprises that belong only in fantasies
Nor do gifts such as teddy bears find their way into my life-
It is okay that these remain fantasies.
I guess all I ever wanted was a handful of people to remember and care enough to not make me an existence of oblivion,
And a family that never forgets- which I do have, every single year.
There really isn't much more to ask for is there :>


But till my mood improves I'm afraid I don't have much positivity to offer-
It has been a rather difficult two months after all.