Just give me a moment..

An idea that I came up with in a group setting is supposedly a group idea, but I was going to write it in my report and I had made it somewhat known. Thing is, what each of us chooses to write can't overlap and has to be distinct;
And that, was my mistake- I should have been waaaay clearer, but I really wasn't expecting something like this to happen.

She'd casually announced that she'd be writing that idea
And if you were there you would understand
That the light atmosphere made it impossible for an outright reaction to take place.
Sure I could have shouted and whatnot, but that's not how it works-
Someone like that is smart..
Even saying it to her face that 'I think I said before that I was including this' didn't work, it was as though I were overreacting
When it was just a case of her being faster than me-
It's like copyright, and she beat me to the registration.

Someone like that, who always behaves and smiles sweetly.

Having known her since 2013,
You know how she's like- but you just don't ever expect it to happen, you see.

I'm pissed, I'm so pissed,
But what can I do?
That idea is flawed, we rejected it after even more evaluation- but she was faster in vocalizing that she'd do it. I did voice what I said before, but that didn't do anything; it's not like I can blow it up or force her to write something else or anything.
Basically what's happened was this: She asks if we are including that idea into the project, I reply that we're not since it's not good enough, and she without missing a beat says that she'll be putting it into her report.
That.. Was planned.
And I was too shocked to answer.

Then,
I'd realized that it was too late and I couldn't do anything about it.

Seriously,
How could I have been so dumb and slow.

Sigh..

But on the flip side that idea wasn't the best anyway
I will have to think of something else,
Conflict-avoiding idiot that I am.

And of course, I had to round up the wonderful day with losing an important notebook that contains chapter-by-chapter summaries for Bio.
On the flip side (I have to do this, or I might just simmer and die)
Those notes had to be improved on anyway-
We'll just have to redo it.

...
Ugh.

That, is my emotion right now.

You can blame people, but you can blame yourself too.
The former just makes me upset. The latter at least consoles me, for its at least simpler a matter than the time someone stole my calculator and electronic dictionary, and didn't return it till I left a card on my desk asking for it back.

I suppose I've learnt something, despite my disbelief at something like this happening, something like a scene out of a drama.
Be a sharper human, me.
The world despite all its beauty harbors people like that; Even as the way you naturally are you will have to become a sharper human, and I don't mean distrust- I only mean caution, which you lack.

.
It's okay...
It's alright.

Breathe.

Let's just study the night away, shall we?
Bio, chapter 7.