I may or may not post more stuff about Love in the future. It does seem like a pretty interesting topic. :> Okay fine. It's because of him. It's always related to him. Pfft, crush. You better chance upon this or something and we can be the main characters of a romance movie together, saving people falling from the sky, knowing it was 'the one' the first time we saw each other or something. :p

New favorite song

Was shown this during English lecture today

Oh, do I love school

The context, the lyrics, the tune, the voice, and most importantly... The emotions.

"What are words if you don't mean them when you say them?"
Indeed.
People promise too easily. They talk too much of what they do not know and will not stay loyal to.
They like to make things sound really amazing, for what doesn't appeal to others' ears seems to drive them away. Even... If they don't have the capacity to stick to it for long.

Promises should only be made when they are meant to be kept.
Words are supposed to be said and used only when you truly mean it.

Cuz what kind of a person would you be?

Perhaps, what 'Love' is is not just a passing phase, a wave of sudden emotions because you suddenly found out that one is 'good-looking', or a feeling of attraction towards their qualities.
'A tall guy', 'slim girl', 'nice voice', 'good speaker'
Or even 'funny', 'cute', 'musically inclined', 'graceful'.

What about when one loses all that?
What about when one changes and loses those external qualities, but preserves what's at the very core?
Would your 'promise' still extend, even till then?

Perhaps, what 'Love' is is the tie between two souls, that is unconditional, deep, and ever lasting.
It isn't all and can never be all, but it's strength is what holds everything together even when everything falls apart.
It's magic will perhaps run out when one loses his physical attributes.
It will perhaps not be evident after a long marriage.

But if it disappears along with time, or with change, or loss

It musn't have been present in the first place.

It must have only been an extremely shallow feeling of 'bliss', not a silent promise with depth you feel deep within your heart.

Perhaps, 'love' has been reduced to what it is now: a simple feeling of attraction. What you 'like' someone for, you can't phrase it into words. You can't see this person being part of your life during its roughest times. You only see how 'cool' it is to show him/her off for the 'good school' he's in. (Oh, don't get me started on the 'good' schools. There's no such thing.) You only see how 'nice' it would be during Valentine's Day, when you have someone to spend it with and photos to put online for.

All it is is a crush, is it not?

Perhaps, I am too young and all I see now is mere 'puppy love', sweet while it lasts. 'True Love' perhaps will come when it's due.
And it probably wouldn't blow my mind or have the perfect story to it,
Like those romantic movies out there, with the hero and heroine saving old men with beautiful love stories to tell to help the relationship along when they hit a rough patch.

It probably will be extremely simple, extremely anti-climatic, with a vexing guy who can't seem to improve on his flaws. We will probably get sick of one another after some time. But if it truly is 'love', it will perhaps last, and it will grow into one of those comical, frustrating, almost silly old couples who complain about their partner all the time but who will never leave each other.

It won't be perfect.

But the promise will linger, and the 'words' will have never been spoken out loud but kept till the very end.

For what's spoken out loud is sometimes more worthless than what's kept unsaid.
Ah, but of course, do say it out if you do mean it.
Communication is key in relationships.

But I'll leave that for another day.

What about it, crush?
Suppose you saw this, do you think I am getting closer to the question you popped,
"How do you find true love?"?

Because it can't be found, it will come when it does.
And it will be the most boring, simplistic, infuriating thing you have ever experienced;
Right smack in the middle of your life, demanding to be part of it.

Since 'love' can't be all dancing butterflies in a field of roses and gentle breeze,
Exciting events together, all smiles and laughter.
It can't always be romantic. It can't always be heartfelt or deep enough.
Ideals will clash with the truth, time and again.

'Love' is most probably not going to bring 'ecstasy' or a fiery new life.
But it will be beautiful in its own way, and for how genuine it is.
The authenticity will be what makes it turn sour, but it's strength will be what keeps it from rotting.

At least, that's what a sixteen year old like me with zero experience in love---thinks.