Tomorrow, we'd be up making rice dumplings wrapped in bamboo leaves with granny (Would be a great experience... That is, if I don't burn the kitchen down or piss granny off with my superb skills xD)
The day after, I'd be out on the second outing with friends in this month
Cat cafe for a friend's birthday (I finally managed to get the planning to work. YES. BOW TO ME HUMANS) Kinda nervous since I'm (kinda) afraid of cats... But what's the problem? I could always get myself to like them. Either way it wouldn't be a problem since dem friends don't know.
And after that, would be Father's Day.
Days like these are like Valentine's Day, filled with expectations, obligation and glorification. Love should be obvious and present in daily life, not just days like these. It should come in forms other than just celebrations and cakes and cards and the such. But of course, some people need these days as excuses for their busy lifestyles, and it's understandable.
I suppose, the magic is only present when the person you wanna surprise wants it to be a surprise. Like birthdays, it is only special when the birthday girl/guy thinks of it as special.
I may find these days to be special or I may not.
You, too
Alongside those I hold dear to me
May find these celebrations necessary, or you may not.
Adults seem to not care as much about these as youngsters
But birthdays are still important, in my point of view.
I feel like they secretly care about it, even if they aren't as enthusiastic anymore.
For those who don't care, it would just be another festival, another day.
Cuz, they would be looking for something more than just a day's worth of celebrations; although remembering that this day is supposed to be special---and that this person is someone really reaaallly special--- is what makes it so... Special.
Again, it boils down to what the person himself wants from you.
To remember, to make an effort, to be aware.
Some want it on that one special day.
Some want it in their daily lives.
Some want it in both.
Your choice, your judgment. :>
Speaking of which, which do you look for in relationships?
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Sometimes, I forget what civillisation looks like
Sometimes, I forget humans exist outside of family
But ha, do I love holidays
Alone time is really precious, you know
One may really enjoy time with beautiful people in her social circle
And one may get so carried away with feelings of happiness that she forgets her inherent need for alone time, that when she suddenly attains this 'alone time', she realizes just how much she needed it.
After all, she's always like this: Enjoying time together with loved ones so much she forgets the need, or rather, she thinks she no longer needs it.
Until she gets strained without knowing it.
It's just part of me, ya know?
I need to retreat into my house with no humans around for a certain period of time after---Erhem---a certain period of time.
That's just how I am.
I don't dislike you, I don't grow tired of you.
I just need that time alone. And no, it's not because I'm depressed or anything.
I just need to be alone.
With books, movies, paper, pencils, and everything else you can think of that doesn't involve another human being.
It's a very precious time for recharging.
It's stifling when you are deprived of it.
And man, when you have it....
It feels so good.
People don't really understand this
People are confused since this side of me ain't apparent
I suppose it's just seen as 'emo' or something like that
Wait, is that word even still on trend?
See? I wouldn't know.
I'm a part time hermit. :>
Haha yeah I like that.
Part time hermit.
It's really more about personal space than anything else.
Similar to privacy which I absolutely treasure and need you to respect.
I like time with you, I do.
But I like time with me, too.
Except people usually don't understand this,
And it's just pointless to explain since they don't.
So I suppose, if you are interested in me,
Know this, alongside all the other stuffs.
This is as important as all the other boundaries I draw.
Because I just want you to know and remember:
No, I don't hate you. And no, I'm not suicidal.
And I'll find you once my battery is full once again.
So don't worry.
Or rather, don't run away.
I'm just a mere human, just like you.
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