"What the heck is 'growing up' in the first place?"

Ahh,
I do remember being through this phase that made me listen to these kinda songs on a daily basis. I may or may not have linked them up here before; but if I have, the emotions behind these are completely different, now.

That's the great thing about music: You can always look back upon a treasure trove of memories, feelings, and meaning. A lot of meaning.

Still, that doesn't devalue these songs.
They are dark, heavy, daring, and sad. ...really sad.
And I still do like them, very much so.

Yet I fell in love with that sobbing

Can you read that kid's imagination?
"Can you recite the area ratio formula?
Can you recite your dreams as a kid?
Who threw those dreams down the drain,
Hey, who was it,
But I already know...

"When will you grow up
What the heck is 'growing up' in the first place?"

I miss you, with you, nope!

The scent of dripping honey

Should I just find a reason so that I can rest now?

We should not do bad things

This still scares me, even till now.
"I'm sorry, is it yummy? That's the flavor of a warm heart.
I'm sorry, although it hurts, please eat my fulfilled heart."

This is probably the sweetest and saddest of them all. You gotta search for the lyrics yourself tho :>
"From now on, time and time again
Again and again you'll have regrets
Again and again you'll be hurt
Again and again you'll cry...

"But if for each of these,
You waste your life looking back,
One day, it'll give you a terrible fever...

"I want to just let things go,
So return as if you never came,
And I'll surely be happy..."

.

"I want to just let things go..
And I'll surely be happy..."

Yeah, I see why this was music that attracted me during that terrible period of my life.

Welp. These songs carry not just nostalgia but meaning on its own;
I can finally appreciate it all as great pieces of art without unnecessary feelings.
These are great expressions of the truths in this world (well, not alllll of em);
I hope you agree..?


I'm so exhausted right now because sleep has not been kind to me,
And neither has Math.

'Night, then. :)