Friendship Day in my school today ^~^

Stayed up till 2 making chocolates and cards last night

Gave them out this morning 

An acquaintance literally shouted for a chocolate

You, being the person with a low EQ that you are,

Just smiled and left

"Wa why don't you give me? So stingy"

Perhaps, it was indeed stingy of you.

But making the chocolates took time and effort, and you have this belief that if you give out the chocolates to just anyone and everyone, you are lowering the value of it.

You will not be making the people you truly want to make feel special, feel special.

You will feel fake, for giving out things that you thought so much about to make happen---so easily.

So, nope.

You gave it to your class,

For it is indeed a nice class.

You find happiness in here.

You gave it to your friends,

For they are indeed important to you.

You want them to know you remember and care about them. 

Especially her, who's in another class now.

You gave it to your CCA mates,

For they are indeed authentic and nice people.

You hope to deepen the relationships you share

You hope to become friends

So, nope.

The little bit of skin peeling off on your finger reminds you of your goal: to be genuine.

The chocolates weren't as pretty as you wanted them to be, the cards weren't as lengthy as you wanted them to be... But you put your heart into it, and to throw it out so unreservedly would mean that you yourself are cheapening your intentions and efforts.

You dont speak of all these to anyone except for Mr Bear, simply cuz they would tell you what you already judge yourself so harshly by---that you think way too much. That a chocolate is just a chocolate, no matter how much effort you put into it.

That giving one out doesn't matter that much.

Mm hmm.

To be honest, I like this aspect of me. Firstly, since self acceptance is so important. Secondly, since this by itself makes me feel much more happier when the people I give gifts or cards to, tell me that the chocolate was good, or that they liked my card.

It means so much more.

So yes, I probably won't change this quality of me, although I might, if it becomes a bad quality to have.

Happy Friendship Day, special people in my life.

I wish you a thousand smiles and lots of love in your coming year. :)