Flaw

There is a certain flaw in me not many can see or know.

This certain flaw can be considered as a weakness.

It can come across as a first world problem.

It isn't as easily solved.

It can't exactly be solved with just effort, try as I might for all these years.

All I know, is that it's been there from the very first day.

Others feed it, I feed it, you all feed on it unknowingly.

It governed... Governs me.

Well, I do still have a long way to go, after all.

I can improve it like I already have.

I can make it less obvious so you-
None of you finds out. 

I just wish, that the one wound others repeatedly reopen with innocent intentions

Didn't build so much onto the one weakness I'm trying so hard to change

I just wish, that over time, the impact lessened instead of heightening

I just wish, that the feelings wouldn't pile up
Since it's never really mentioned
And when it actually gets brought up, regardless of the tone, none of you realize the severity or the pain it brings me

But
It is my fault.

It's not easy to serve up the softest part of yourself to the table and expect others to dig in with the genuine honesty it takes for you to do the serving.

I am not obvious enough.
What's painfully obvious for me is subtle for you.

You people therefore continue, with your harmless actions that can be so hurtful.

.

This weakness will not, should not, can not become a mindset.

But 

It already has.