Ripple in the dark

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=P_dpbetunHc

It's been a while.

I'd thought that March would be the last of my honeymoon,

But it'd appear that it has long since ended on its own accord.

Commitments are finally setting in, and even though achievements aren't my goal I still gotta go all out for these things

Failure is fine; its expected

A tight schedule is alright; its expected

Compromising, working harder, and not feeling good all the time is okay; its expected.

I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I'm starting to get a little tired physically

And it's only the beginning.

I feel like I'll fail for all these things

But it ain't stopping me.

We gotta try even before we call it quits, right?

I promise I'll indulge in writing bout my second cca if I fail/don't fail. 

(Either way you'll be subjected to my autobiography, so that's something to look forward to)

My world has expanded again, and I know for sure that it'll only continue to do so from now on.

You've got it all, you lost your mind in the sound. 

Ain't it beautiful?

That meeting new people and experiencing new things always brings you something else
I feel like there are more dimensions to my life now, and if you were to listen to me talk or learn about my life it wouldn't be as restricted and boring (I hope).

The fear, the little panic attacks, the fun, and the expansion of one's views' the best part- Repetition is no longer as common and I'm starting to not worry as much over little things and overcontemplate people. Overflowing emotions don't take over as much and you start to see certain people and events as passing milestones- there isn't a need to magnify negativity and positivity comes from various sources other than yourself.
I could get used to this.. I could like a faster paced lifestyle. Slowing down is up to you after all- I am one to stop and smell the roses whenever I feel like it so it isn't ever a problem- Problem is, I stop for too long at too many stops, and that distracts me way too much.

I'm starting to see and think with a slight difference now, so that's good.

This is precisely what I've signed up for after all- sleepless nights, loads of stuffs to do, days that feel extended and weeks that stretch out like months at times- You know when you've accomplished so many feats in one day and met so many different people the next, the amount of information retained and emotions experienced range from different extremities and you're generally satisfied with yourself at the end of the day? Yeah, that's how it's beginning to feel.
Improving on a report you had a consultation for two days ago feels like amending work from a week ago.

There is something I'm trying to improve on, and that is tuning in and tuning out.
I want to be able to relax once work is completed, and I want to pay full attention to one thing when I'm in a certain space. Drama studio=Drama, School=Work and Friends, Home=Family, homework and relaxation, and so on. Tuning in and out makes you not overthink something when you're doing something else. It helps me focus more, and it re-energizes me whenever I enter a different space.
But yeah, I'm still trying things out and I'll let you know if this works.

And of course, perhaps it mightn't be too much to wish for a full view of the sky in the near future; instead of the little circle at the top of the restricted well.