A challenge for me.

It's gonna be such a hectic term.

It's only been three days of school and there's been career talks, a learning journey, an audition, and there's more to come.
It's soooo exciting.
Somehow you passed the audition and got a role.
How was that possible?
Nay, it shouldn't have happened.
But somehow it did.

I can't believe it.

... I still can't.
Especially since the monologue I prepared was a Humpty Dumpty one and it was just effort, no outstanding portrayal of emotions whatsoever.
It was really fun tho xD
And for the given time period of two days?
I'd call it a good attempt that turned out to be really enjoyable.


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But of course you are going to put in your very very best for it, talented or not.

It's such an unbelievable opportunity to act, even if it's dramatized reading and everything will be dependent on voices alone.
After all, you have never done emotional characters with dark pasts, depth, and 'emotional complexity' like the teacher said. There's gonna be character development and a whole lot of things you never tried before as well.
This will be real fun and an experience to behold, that's for sure.
Especially so since you learnt from a mate's honesty that you put on an accent when on stage. That came as a shock... You didn't realise it and was never told, so it was embarrassing to find out. But it's great, cuz now that you know it, you can work on it. It's probably just code switching from onstage reading and presenting in the past, so this is just a personal habitual challenge to be overcome.
You are starting to fall for the role you're playing as well.
She's such an interesting character. Happy, strong, vulnerable, breaking, broken, but somewhat held together. She needs to 'break down within herself at certain points but try to hide it'. Ahh, was that good advice. It got me somewhere.
There's still so much more to find out from rereading the script repeatedly. There's still so much more effort to be put in and so much more fun to experience.
There too is going to be the opportunity to find out just what I'm capable of.
There too is the huge step forward, out of my comfort zone, and attempting something I never dared try.
There too are going to be many parts where I will struggle. Arguing. And it has to be without getting all shouty. Truly feeling emotions and creating my very own version of the given character. Acting the ages five-nine without overplaying the Singaporean accent and youth. And so on.
Let's not hope for the best. Let's work for it.
Skilled or not, let's try it out. Let's try our best, and bring back something precious, warm, and bubbling.

The first read-through kinda thing is on Friday.

I can do this.
Fear and doubt is there of course.
But it will get me nowhere except pull me down and make me blank out on stage like I did when I was overly nervous.

And so
I can do this.
I definitely can.

It will be fine!
It will be absolutely fabulous.

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I'm really really reaaaalllllyyyyy looking forward to everything that's going to happen within this term: a 4-day-3-night camp at school, sleeping with classmates and conducting interviews on working adults. A performance, learning journey, time with friends, time at school, time with the interesting and exciting unknown future.

The only thing I'm not looking forward to is the fact that my choc-fudge-brownie ice cream and durians have to be had in moderation. Worse still, I may have to forsake it.

But still
It's worth it.

And I can't wait.

Oooooh.
Let's kickstart this new busy month with a cheery song, shall we?
Chuwon Chuwon

If you know me, here on maroonforest we readers always pay attention to dem lyrics, apart from the tune. I think you will like it. :>