Two-faced

I think that people who hurt others are really hurt themselves.

Two-faced people are really terrible,
But their dislike for pretty much everyone stems from self hate, self doubt, and therefore jealousy and bitterness. They are not happy with themselves, and therefore fail to see the good in others. Whatever rumors they spread only reflects the ugliness within their hearts.
Ultimately, they may be bad people, but they are not evil.
Forgiveness is not to be expected, and neither is forgetting.
You are entitled to your own wounded heart.
You are entitled to feeling humane emotions.
You are entitled to staying away from such people.
Pity Party---Melanie Martinez

But if you stoop to this actor/actress's level and start spreading rumors about her, too
You are going a little too far.

I understand that you feel anger and resentment.
But karma and justice is not for you to deliver.
What comes around most definitely will go around.
And since these people are already fighting their own battles in silence, they are suffering themselves, and are really just finding their own identity, though albeit through wrong methods.

Friend, I am really really glad that you aren't really spreading rumors and that I got to talk to you in such a heart-to-heart manner after such a long time, witnessing first hand your change in demeanor and thoughts. I'm not going to say or think things like 'I liked you better when you were pure and innocent' or 'I like you better now' because those things are meaningless.
You however will now be able to see things in a clearer way.

And hopefully, that means that you wouldn't be hurt again by similar people.
I sincerely hope so.

Angels, won't you protect this amiable friend of mine that is simple and pure at heart?
Please do. I believe that you exist.
I believe that everyone has one.


Somehow, this two-faced actress has approached me, too.
Justice isn't mine to deliver, either.

If you, a dear reader, are worried about me or even doubting me
Don't.
Rest assured I won't be swayed
Rest assured I won't do anything silly
Rest assured I have unwavering trust in my friends and I feel everything very strongly but it isn't my battle to fight.
I don't think I should fight it either.
I don't think it's fair for this actress.


I know that some of your friends will say stuffs about me.
I know.

Those who matter wouldn't mind.
Those who know me wouldn't believe in any of those things.
And these people say these things out of boredom or mere childishness anyway.

I will act like I know none of what you told me.
Just like the ignorant me from before, who just thought of this actress as someone lonely and cautious with flattery and words.

It's meaningless anyway.

I have emotions, you know.
A whole lot of them, all bunched and scrunched together.
So please don't ever doubt that.
I don't ever want to be misunderstood by you important people.

Not having told people with great advice about this,
I honestly do not know what to choose.
I do not know how to speak of it either.

But my heart tells me that this is the way to go.

And so I shall follow it.