Not the first time but it's alright. :)

Emily is back to haunt me.

Or rather, she hasn't left yet.

I suppose, it wouldn't go away so soon.

A song played during the show


The gloom remains.
The darkness taunts.

It is now time to purge it all.
I'm sure I'll be absolutely fine. :>

One thing tho.

None of them came for the performance.

Some reasons were valid and understandable
Some were not.






I didn't want it to be obligatory; that's meaningless and forced.
I wanted you to want to come.

That's why I don't ever play the 'friends' card.
...It was too much to wish for wasn't it.

But really, it isn't the first time and you aren't the first bunch.

What really matters is that I had tried my best for this character and that it was a huge step forward, a very different experience, and a great memory.

What's disappointment if you had guessed it, expected it, yet still hoped not to feel it?

It might be a little lonely, even saddening.
But if I rely on any of you for my self worth and emotional well-being,
I'd be long dead by now.

I'm affected, sure.

It's almost like I've turned into that idiot from back then once again.

But I'm blaming it on Emily and the burden she carries.
Okay?

I'll get over it without denying anything.

But now I need a shower.
A nice, long and hot shower.

And sleep.

I haven't had a good night's sleep for quite some time.