Do you need a hug?

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hsd74vBLE-k

I do need a hug.

I think all of us do,
I think that life has just been kind of terrible lately.

It's true that you gotta accept things and make the best out of it,
But uh I suppose stuffs haven't been the best,
So we just gotta try to smile despite it all.

Listen.


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Maybe if I didn't censor myself so much up here,
I wouldn't still be holding on to so much anger.

That fiend said that I was 'arrogant' while speaking to the bish,
And that I should 'correct my attitude' or else it is completely right that the bish intentionally skipped me the explanation of her idea.
So it was my fault that someone targets me like that,
Someone who skips over my slides during a group rehearsal
So much so that I have to blandly tell them to return to those slides before I can rehearse.
It was my fault that she'd use her worst handwriting and worst pen in writing my name on the divider, and it is only for me that she painstakingly goes out of her way to ensure that I have to do extra things, things that will make whatever should be normal, be normal. I have to be extra careful in checking that she's not done shit like switching from a nice pen to a bad one, for the specific purpose of bringing me trouble. I have to be cautious and check things ten times over, resolve it myself, and it's because someone like that is trying to screw things over for me. I had to blandly ask for a permanent marker and rewrite my name, rub it off or whatever,
And the things that she does doesn't just end there.
It goes beyond, above and beyond interrupting my every conversation, being extremely rude, beyond what a proper 'group leader' should do.

I know that it is trivial,
But she does this at every opportunity that she gets,
And it is so freaking annoying.

Imagine someone, throwing money at you- literally
When they're supposed to pay you for something you bought for the project.

Someone talking behind your back to most people,
Someone who acts like a victim after all that,
Someone who doesn't do shit work,
Someone who intentionally pauses to interrupt your next sentence,
And it's with a sweet tone.

Of course I have to say something for myself-
Was that.. wrong?


Are you seriously telling me that I should submit myself to her the way you, fiend,  have done because you're a coward who exploits the ones  who're nice to you
...And that that is 'humble', and not 'arrogant'?

Oh, I hope you burn.
Sincerely.


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The thing is that I really don't want to rant up here like this,
I know it's bad and I know it's terrible for the readers, too.

Still, this may as well be my only outlet
And I'd cuss,
But I'm too busy censoring myself
So this detail will have to do.

For goodness' sake, I really do hope they burn.

Karma needs to exist; People need to be treated the way they treat others.
But that's not how the world works!

All of us have our lives to lead,
The thing is that bitches like that usually lead great lives..
And that's the worst part.

Hypocrites get love and bitchiness gets rewarded.

I know that the world isn't.. just.. This
But it just angers me so much that they can be so flipping horrendous on the inside and yet still get what they want despite it, and for, it.

I've been trying to stay positive for so long,

I just want to be unfiltered for once,
I just want a good night's sleep for once.