December breeze

Still in love.

Strands of hair coiling this way and that around the sides of your face,
Hair up in a bun that couldn't be neat even if you tried
Nails a pale lavender, specs riding high, clouded and over-used geeky trendy
Days spent in the library, grueling hours of gawking at math
And the slow progress that ensues.
The little triumphs, the little pieces of satisfaction to be used for warmth and hope.
The Miniaturist in one hand, earphones in another,
You curl up in that little room of yours
The one with Christmas lights and dreamcatchers,
The one with all your collection of papers and notebooks.
You listen to the rain, you tap your fingers to the tune in your head.

Fingers outstretched, you ignore the runners that give you weird looks even though you aren't in their way
Quietly, you allow the flurries of air to gush hurriedly past your finger tips,
A bit like flustered squirrels and spontaneous bartenders,
A bit like blushing humans under a hot gaze.

When it gets a little colder,
You put on your grainy, mildly green sweatpants
And just dance around to your latest drug.
You try on clothes for the heck of it,
Not because you're preparing to go out
But because you're imagining the social life you don't have,
And you watch Sherlock and various shows.

You plan to watch How the Grinch Stole Christmas soon,
And you plan on watching hyped up Korean dramas and comment on them in that smartarse way of yours when you're all alone.

You've got a thing for socks, too. And mugs.
Frankly the only reason why you're calling them a 'collection' is so you can sound somewhat normal about the things you love, and justify the things you do.

Sent a picture of you wearing socks
Supposedly reminiscent of Anna from Frozen
With the line, 'Increasing my sex appeal'

Which garnered the response,
'Ooh take me now you sexy beast.'




'Thanks, I shall.'





Really,
In what way is life incomplete when you're now able to do this with friends you've recently just made? Not to mention, that she's one who shares an interest in anime as well.


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All I have to say is that all of this is really ideal,
And that I am very happy with the way things are going,
In particular, the studying.

Because at seventeen turning on eighteen,
This is the one best thing you can do for yourself.