moving on.

Really heavy things happen around the world all the time;
People are always bringing something terrible into your life
And after ranting once, you really should start letting go.

Too much and it's complaint, too much and you'll always remain angry.

Sure there's a bish in my group, but it could be so much worse.
Passive aggression and talking behind my back to my one friend-
Fine, if that's how you're playing it- but I don't wanna dwell on it any longer.
The world is full of people like her anyways, so I've just gotta deal with it.
And yes, if I let her get to me I'll always always always feel like throwing rotten eggs at her head, so yes, might as well take the easy way out and learn to take it lightly, take it easy, and to ignore her existence and her attacks.

Ah.. I really need to learn how to get terrible people like this to like me, soon.


I really don't care two pence about what they think of me,
But it just makes life soooooo much easier, you see.

And, well

Else it'll just repeat itself no matter where I'm at, no?


.

This holiday,
We mug.

We have two months to solve our problems;
I memorized without understanding even though it was the dumbest way to study-
Sometimes things don't make sense and in your panic you think that memory alone will save you... but of course it doesn't.

And this time round, I ain't committing that mistake no longer.

It made me sad and it made me scared.

Buuuuut,
                                                               we can do it!

Yes, we can!

(Oh god stop it)

Lit and GP are subjects that you'll definitely get decent grades in if you work extremely hard (as it has been for this year),  so that's not a problem.
The problem  lies with math and how daunting it is, bio and how discouraging it has all been, chem and how unattainable it is.

But we have two months.
An additional two weeks, if we begin now in spite of PW.

And so
it is possible.
I can't believe I scraped past promotion (oh yes, I never did tell you did I)
By one rank point or something
When I'd studied with the dumbest method available.

Perhaps that means  that it isn't hopeless,
But it's a highly frightening situation regardless.

For once I'll have to pester people I know,
And I'll have to learn how to rely on them.

I'll study with them not just in the literal sense, but in the way that we actually help one another out, too.

Ohhhhhh gosh,
How are we gonna do this.

Just, how.
How how how how.

Effort, that's how.