What do you do when you can't relax, can't afford to do so, can't truly sink into it even if granted the time for doing so?

It's just been a relatively pleasant Saturday,
Reading a guidebook on criticism in literature,
Seeking out monologues online and sounding crazy in my room,
Watching videos on the election in the US and
Doing some Project Work.

In truth, what I really want to do is watch some anime
Read Silas Marner, stick papers together and continue making Pom poms n bookmarks.
I want to rewatch some Disney movies or whatever,
But a thought constantly nags at the back of my mind and that is to
Begin Math and Bio revision yet again.

So even when I'm relaxing I feel like some good has to come out of it
And I stay away from switching my brain off for once.

Times like these I want another long, hot shower with all that comfort that it brings.. but oh well.
Tomorrow, we'll have to meet for PW again, see that one girl in my group who victimises herself and doesn't do much work, be careful of my words/everything around the group, and face that one friend whom you can't feel related to anymore.

In truth, I just want to curl up
and sleep
even if that's running away for a little while.

Erased