Still gotta wake up and be someone.

Still gotta wake up and be someone.

"In a way, you are a truly balanced person. You have a good sense of self, but you have periods of worry and self doubt. You don't like to be alone a lot, but you don't like being constantly surrounded, either. You can be shy in some situations and bold in others. You can tell people how you feel, but you don't wear your heart on your sleeve. You aren't "TOO" anything: You aren't too shy, you aren't too aggressive, you aren't too extroverted, you aren't too introverted. However at any one time you can be any combination of these things.

You tend to adapt yourself to match the situations in which you find yourself. You may be quiet and sensitive with some people, or joking and loud with others. These are all facets of your personality. People tend to perceive you as they want to perceive you. They may even tend to idealize you a bit. Then, when you do something that doesn't fit their concept of who you are (like have an outburst of anger, or a fit of shyness, or make an insensitive joke)they can be shocked and surprised. Does anyone know the real you?

Your daemon would represent your multi-faceted and ever-changing personality, as well as people's tendency to idealize you. He or she would get angry when you did not, be calm and poised when you felt ruffled and anxious, and always be the voice of emotion and reason in your ear.

Suggested forms: Swan, Elephant, Koala, Panda, Chameleon, Wolf."

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So that was one of those quizzes that somehow rings extremely true.

Oh, and that one song that is absolutely amazing in describing what it feels right now.

"Doesn't matter who you are or what you've done,
something in the world will make a fool of you."

It was recommended by one of the new people I'm getting to know,
And we texted each other for two hours yesterday-

For the first time, I've done something like this that is teenager-ish, 
And, well, it's actually not too bad.
Awesome humans, huh? ;)

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I'm doing a lot of unnecessary things.

This isn't the way to do it;

It's just adding unnecessary shit on top of everything else, really.

Uhh...

Those who cause your anguish really shouldn't be treated with nicely,

With truth, or even respect.

I don't know why I do it; something's wrong with me.

So,

I suppose I just gotta act like nothing's wrong because that works so much better, and they aren't humans worth all that heart. 

At least I was able to resolve all of this through my own effort.

At least that's something to be proud of... I guess.

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Apparently I've functioned on such a jacked up sleep cycle for so long,

I can't feel the effects any longer.

If I will myself to 'focus', the urge to deconstruct my brain right there and then disappears, and if I tell myself to 'let go and rest', I can do exactly that and I'll basically sleep for as long as possible before I wake myself up again.

Ah. All of us are sleep deprived, aren't we?

Let's set aside more time for that rejuvenative business, shall we?