I'm still fervently trying to fix all that's wrong with my foot, if you remember.
It's not exactly working.. And, well, how do I put this:
I'm actually growing used to it.
That's the thing-
When something makes me uncomfortable, I accept it as part of life whilst trying to improve it.
It's kinda what I do for that one girl who took my idea, likes to interrupt me, often gets close to my friends with that sweet demeanour (it's hard to explain but you know what I mean), tries to force people to submit to her, blows things up and is generally quite the beach, ya know? The one with seashells on it.
I'm kinda used to it now, so it doesn't piss me off as much as it did at first.
The other day we had an argument (and you know me; this is quite rare)
because I had a technical issue trying to upload something and she confronted me with the accusation that I didn't do work.
I basically told her stuffs like 'before you get to your conclusion, can you please check your facts?' n when she used that sweet tone again to tell me that I was 'too harsh', I had to throw it back to her- 'when you approach people with so much anger and accusation, do you expect people to be composed in talking to you? And I tried being calm, but you just weren't listening...(and bla blah)... Can you at least listen to reason?'
Yeah I've already bored you with too much details, huh.
Working with people like that in a designated group is tough,
But, well,
I'll manage.
The key here is to not back down
And I don't mean that as in insistence of your own ideas without impartiality,
I mean to not give in to her silly tantrums and controlling behaviour.
Frankly, it's annoying how she expects everyone to bow down to her feet
And someone like me who voices my opinions in a group setting is, to her, someone who makes others feel like they're 'obligated to follow' me, in her own words.
Oh, yeah?
Girl, ever heard of assertion and speaking up?
I make sure to ask if everyone is agreeable every single time I propose something, and it is a habit to combine ideas and persuade others. I don't shout and I don't force people, if that wasn't apparent.
Just because I don't do disclaimers like 'I'm just gonna speak my mind, please don't get offended' cuz I don't feel it necessary, doesn't mean that I'm a stubborn and forceful human trying to snatch your leadership position.
I'm never interested in such glorified positions, and
You clearly wanted that role, so I melded myself into a silent shadow as I usually work so hard on being. and agreed to it
But you clearly aren't someone fit to be a leader.
Oh gosh
To think that there'll be millions of people like you in the future,
All waiting for me.
I suppose I'll just have to do the disclaimer thing and sound less sure when I speak...?
Ah but I only look at ideas, so why exactly do I always get on the wrong side of such self-oriented people?
Just because I'm the opposite of unassuming/meek, doesn't mean that I'm a threat.
I'm not trying to do anything to you, so just relax.
And well I'm not exactly a human to only rant up here and not take action,
So that argument was a standing up for myself, too.
Because you'll never be able to step over me,
And if it's a ridiculous situation with someone like you,
I won't do what I know you'll like.
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